Day 7

July 8th, 2018 by Potato

Day 7. The wild calories continue to call at me. Their taunts and siren songs pick up at sunset. So far I have not been tempted out to the wilderness to investigate…

It’s been a week of actually doing the stuff I’ve known all along I should have been doing, and things are going well. I’ve run a calorie deficit every day. I’ve lost over a pound in a week — an amount that took 3 months in my “let’s just fart about with trying to eat a bit more sensibly and be a bit more active.” None of this should be much of a surprise (except the surprise that I’ve actually been good for a whole week).

I’m not physically hungry at all, so far it’s a fairly achievable calorie deficit. I’m taking a bit of a cue from the intermittent fasting ideas, with late breakfasts (~10-11am) and no snacking after 10pm, which I think helps, as I’m used to the idea of missing breakfast in a crazy morning rush. Psychologically I’m craving all the things. Like, I just want to transmute my stress into nothingness via the catalysis of chocoloate, even though that is a reversible reaction, with some nasty by-products. I’ve been whining, and likely will continue until I get to the point where eating healthy is more natural, and where I don’t want to eat a box of cookies just to prove that I can complete some kind of task.

The deeper question is how did I get here, and how would I get here on purpose faster in the future? Whether it’s losing weight, starting to budget, or starting some uncomfortable project, how can you get to the point where you actually just buckle down and do it? I don’t recall a particular epiphany — hitting my never weight should have taken me right to this point, but instead it took another year and a half to actually take it seriously and use all the tools at my disposal. My dad getting sick did re-surface the idea of mortality, but then why July 1st and not June 1st?

It’s an important question, because while I expect I’ll be good next week, and hope I’ll be good the week after, and the week after that, ad nauseum, I know there will come a time where I will slack off or fail. And when that happens, how will I dust myself off and get myself back here again? How, when I’m not sure how I finally stumbled in in the first place? For that matter, I’m not even quite sure what it is that I stumbled upon: willpower? Wisdom? The incubation time for a good idea to finally take root?

Anyway, had a decent week health-wise. There have been other decent weeks, but this one felt a little more on purpose, what with the tracking and not eating all the timbits when work got busy. Not quite sure how I managed it or how to do it again.

Never Weight – Q2-18 Update

July 3rd, 2018 by Potato

The last update featured some ups and downs and a near miss. This quarter was more of the same: a few good weeks, a few weeks of kummerspeck. Lots of walking: I hit my step goal ~5 days out of 7 on average, and there were only 3 weeks in the quarter where I didn’t hit it at least 4 days. But, curling season is over and I didn’t do much other exercise (other than the brief period of teaching Blueberry to ride her bike). At one point I was down over 2 lbs from the previous weigh-in, at another I was up over 3. But the see-saw did end down on the quarter end, by just a hair over a pound.

Taking three months to lose a pound doesn’t seem right to celebrate, because that’s almost down in the noise, and way slower than my target. But I did cross down through a threshold, which is good! The directionality is correct! And it felt hard, even if the results aren’t impressive. So it means the price of the course is going to go up! The next stop on the way back up to $299 (as my weight comes down to my target) is $229.

To really challenge myself I should probably make the thresholds a moving target, but right now I’m going to take the small victory and think about insanity mode for 2019.

I know that tracking what I eat will help, and I haven’t been doing it. So I started today. Right now I’m trying the function built into the fitbit app, but might just use a small paper journal in the end. Either way, I know that how I do it will be less important than that I do it at all.

The quarter also marks the start of the 20th anniversary year of BbtP. The day the site went live way, way back then is an ill-defined day near the end of the year, lost to the sands of time, so we’ll arbitrarily align with the winter solstice. Of course, celebrations are premature. I’ve wanted to update the design, etc. (maybe enable https?), and thought this would be the natural time for an update (maybe even a complete “rebranding”) but just don’t have the time/energy for it. And given that my posting frequency is way down, with more meta/health update posts, to an outside observer all signs must be indicating that the blog is in terminal decline, so perhaps we should open up the ideas for anniversary celebrations to a long-overdue euthanasia.

The Big C

June 18th, 2018 by Potato

Yeah, I’ve been silent a while. Long story short, my dad got sick and I had to take him to the hospital. That was two and a half weeks ago. Turns out the root cause of the problem that sent him there was cancer, which is always a scary thing to hear. But it’s looking like it’s operable (or in my dad’s words, “good cancer”), and this is his third go-round with the Emperor of All Maladies, so he’s taking it in stride (or at least with a brave face). He’s got his RBCs back up and is on his feet again, so despite a rough week in the hospital and now a surgery to look forward to, things are actually getting back to normal.

Of course, I had to wait until that point before saying anything to make sure most of my relatives and my parents’ friends were able to find out from them directly, rather than reading about it on the blog.

As for me, I don’t recall eating particularly poorly, but stress eating is a thing I suck at. I was doing mostly ok on the weightloss front up until this, but unless I turn things around in the next two weeks for quarter-end weigh-in, I’m likely going to end up higher than last check-in.

Anyway, father’s day was great. Blueberry and I watched almost 3 hours of the Magic Schoolbus (or she watched while I snoozed, because I definitely didn’t go into that with a plan for 3 hours of “screen time”), she played with garbage and claimed it was “the best day ever!”, I got 4 loads of laundry done, and she gave me cupcakes. I’m not really selling it here, but I really, really like being a daddy, and it’s a good time to stop and reflect on that.

Never Weight – Q1-18 Update

April 1st, 2018 by Potato

This year I’m trying to make that health improvement thing real. As announced last quarter, I’m cutting the price of the course until I get my weight under control. In a quick update a few weeks ago, I mentioned that I lost a bunch of weight while I was sick with the flu. And as I suspected, I gained most of it back. However, I managed to keep off over 2 pounds (but not quite 3) in the quarter. That’s not the pace I’m aiming for, but at least it’s moving in the right direction and it’s a big enough weight loss that it should be real (and not just measurement noise). I’m looking on the bright side, here.

I was just a half a pound shy of hitting the first threshold to bump up the price of the book and course, so the price stays the same through the spring. It’s hard to exactly quantify how much revenue I’ve lost because it’s impossible to know the price elasticity — how many people would still have paid the higher price — but for the sake of motivation I’m assuming it’s nearly everyone and that junk food and laziness is costing me a new computer at this point.

Tater’s Takes: The Flu, Back Pain

March 13th, 2018 by Potato

The flu swept through town here (word from the school is that Toronto Public Health confirmed it was a flu outbreak that hit Blueberry’s class) and I had a rough week there — high fever, chills, aches, as well as a bit of a cough. Though it wasn’t a bad cough in the sense of coughing non-stop, I did get hit hard by the coughs when they came, and now a week and a half later I still can’t talk right and can barely move, because I seem to have thrown my back out and damaged my vocal cords coughing. My back was just starting to seem a bit better today (I could bend over and reach all the way to my knees! I could sit in a chair and type!) when I did something that seemed totally innocuous but put it out again today.

So that sucks. Also makes me feel really old to be shuffling around the house, doing awkward things with my knees and hips to try to reach things without actually flexing my back.

Yesterday was my first day back at work, and it was hard, especially the part where I couldn’t take a nap partway through the day. The flu’s a hell of a virus.

Behind the scenes, the blog is still very quiet. I do have thoughts on the new Vanguard all-in-one funds, and they are positive ones. I’ve also been trying to do a little video to accompany the guide to Canadian taxes for freelancers, but can’t really record anything other than a throat cancer awareness ad at the moment. I figure it could wait until April, however, I’ve seen a fair number of people inpatient for various tax slips so they could go ahead and file, and I’m like man, it’s still early March. I know as someone with a non-registered account I can’t file until April because of T3’s, but even then, don’t most people wait until close to the deadline anyway? Isn’t that what deadlines are for?

One good thing about getting really sick is just shedding the pounds — though I suspect I’ll gain much of that back before the next official weigh-in (and by definition, that’s not healthy weight loss).

Since I’ve got nothing else for you to read, why not check out Sandi’s reads, or Dan’s take on the new one-fund solution. I noticed a lot of people talking about burnout — here’s one from Des at Half-Banked as an example — around the turn of the new year. Definitely been feeling a touch crispy round the edges here, but don’t have articulate thoughts yet on the topic — though many of you have likely noticed the lack of posting frequency, or the number of emails and side projects that get a “that’s nifty, but let’s just park that for a few months until I can properly think about it or really anything.”

I had a few people ask me about dollar-cost averaging late last year, and was going to bring the threads together into a post, but then Dan hit all the points in this post and podcast.

Speaking of podcasts, there are just a whole bunch of episodes of Because Money out now in case you somehow feel the need to make up for the lack of activity on the blog.